Thursday 12th December ’24
Man, what the fuck happened to me. I don’t even know what happened; I just stopped trying after the third post. I was too busy the day after my previous post and before I know it I am in December in a foreign fucking country being all depressed about my life. This past month I have been feeling hopeless and have gotten back into my vices. I have been the unhappiest I have ever been and now think that I am at the lowest point of my life. Well you know what they say, once you hit the bottom the only place to go know is up. But knowing me I will probably find a way to dig myself a new hole to fucking cry in. Well lets just say it I am a fucking porn addict and it has taken over my life. I don’t know how to get rid of it and I have been trying everything but nothing seems to work for me. I don’t even know why I have been putting this off but I can’t be asked to talk about this any longer, I will talk about it more in detail another day.
On another note, I am in India right now for my cousin’s wedding and it is quite nice. The weather and the food are both good, but I guess because of this I haven’t been able to enjoy myself fully. So from today I am going to promise myself that I will at least try to make an effort to post her everyday, because I do truly believe that this is the answer to a lot of my problems.
Anyways, I am done talking, I got to go to sleep I will see you tomorrow.