A personal reflection on my journey in the pursuit of meaning

Ansh

  • Training Day

    Training Day

    2h 2m

    2001

    Antoine Fuqua

    8/10

    What a movie, Denzel’s performance sucks you right into the atmosphere of Los Angeles in the 2000s. From the way he walks to the way he talks, he mesmerises with his acting. Ethan Hawke cannot also be forgotten as his acting as Jake Hoyt makes the world of South Central more digestible to the average viewer who has never been to that part of the world. Every scene is packed with memorable moments right up till the end. However, I have got to say that at times the movie can get a bit hard to follow which can ruin the immersion for some people and I think the ending could have had a better payoff. Overall I think that this is a must-watch film especially if you are a Denzel fan like me.

    Acting 10/10

    Cinematography 8/10

    Plot 8/10

    Immersion 7/10

    Score 6/10

    Payoff 7/10

  • The Accountant

    The Accountant

    2h 7m

    2016

    Gavin O’Connor

    7/10

    The accountant is a decent film to watch in your free time, Ben Affleck’s performance was average at best, i mean you could tell that you were watching Ben and not Chris Wolff. His acting didn’t suck you out of the movie but it did not enhance it to bring the rating up. I would say that the most memorable perfomance in this movie for me was Jon Bernthal as Brax. He was memorable and added layers to every scene he was in. In terms of plot, I would say that it was interesting and easy to follow, it was fun to watch and I would recommened giving this movie a watch. Another memorable mention was J.K. Simmons as Ray King, but I think I m just a bit biased.

    Acting 7/10

    Cinematography 6/10

    Plot 7/10

    Immersion 7/10

    Score 4/10

    Payoff 7/10

  • the trek to base camp

    the trek to base camp

    Monday 17th November ’24

    Today marks the first day of starting this blog, I wanted to start on remembrance day which was on the 11th but the fucking website took me a whole week to actually make (this is the 5th iteration). Well I guess let’s get started, I posted a shabby picture for this day as I think it resembles my day-to-day quite perfectly – pretty anti-climactic. I guess that’s how today feels as well, I thought it would be more exciting starting my own blog but I think because it took me so long to actually make the site the excitement wore off. Well enough of that, Well enough complaining and onto the actual post.

    I labelled this as the trek to base camp as I feel like I haven’t even built my foundation yet. I think I still have a long way to go before I even attempt to climb this mountain. This blog will help me on my journey as I am going to reflect on my day every single day or at least I hope so, with my goal being every day I have improved from the previous day. What I mean by building my foundation is that I wish to have developed certain habits before I chuck myself into the deep end of self-improvement. The habits I intend to build by the base camp:

    1. Have a set sleep and waking up schedule
    2. Having a consistent routine of going to the gym
    3. Getting into the habit of always having a new skill I am learning

    I guess those three are good launchpads to get started on, in this blog I will keep you up with my day-to-day, give a story time here or there and tell you more about how I am feeling. I guess the moral of the story is that I have no fucking clue where this is going to go and that seems kind of exciting to me, so without further ado lets start this fucking journey.

  • 3.

    The fan gently hums

    French melodies light the dark

    A whiff of calmness

    This haiku resonates with me deeply as this is a safe area for me. Whenever I feel down, I put on some music and just stare up at the ceiling. This moment brings me back to the present and reassures me that everything will be alright.

  • 2.

    The thought of death looms

    A dark umbra lies under

    Oh God save my soul

    This haiku came to me when I was feeling hopeless about my progress, I had gone back into the pit of addiction and saw no light at the end of the tunnel. This caused the suicidal thoughts to creep back into my mind and I remember thinking the last line of this haiku as a last-ditch attempt to get rid of those thoughts.

  • 1.

    A dark misty path

    Slugs basking on the damp rocks

    The petrichor smell

    I came up with this haiku when I was hiking with my friends in the mountains of Switzerland. It started raining when we were halfway through our hike and decided to take a break, after it had stopped raining we decided that it was time to turn back and head back to our room as we didn’t want to go trekking in mud. As we were walking I noticed a tremendous amount of slugs coming out from the fog into the trials, it was something I had never seen before.